It's time for dinner, I dont wanna eat! Its aiight OneThree, dont be disappointed, yall still rock aiights. So we wrote out so many copies of the cheers and in the end we could cheer. Bleah, sickening monkey lookalike. I swear she's sucha joy killer, Jenn is so right. Ahh. Sitcoms up tonight. I am not in the mood to study. I feel kinda sick. Prolly because of Jenn and Meishi, the boob slapping. Gosh, Ij girls are pretty pervertically, violent. Sounds kinda wrongg.

Maths tmr! Ahh, tell me this is for my own good, Gosh, doesnt work anymore. Old sixites! Makes me happy. Meanwhile, I'm gonna bathe my sticky self.

Toodles babes;;

I could be human but then, I'd be pretending.
Roswell.

Rawr, I am so effing bored. When I am suppose to what, Study? Yeahh, so much for the promises. Well I did Study two chapters of Science. But I dont think any of it got into my head. I guess school today was alright, nothing much other than ChaCha Assesment. Hah, it was funny. Never been so serious looking in my life. (The mirrors in the dance studio is so distracting.)

Maths, just puts me to sleep luh. Its so boring, I could just suffocate and die, ON MY OWN ACCORD. Hah, I have tonns of diagrams left to draw, but I don't know where to begin with. Lil' Miss March is so cute, trying to steal some bits of chicken from my sister. Greedy cat. Totally eplains her well, fluffy-ness. Now Mother is like pissing me off, by the second. Can anyone remind me, how lucky? i can be? Hah, yeahh.Bleah, I am now watching this lawyer-y show and its making me really confused. I am never gon' be a lawyer. NoNo. Not that I can, that is.

Now, whats wrong with msn?

You hate her but at the same time want her to like you.
So whats this all about.

With like so much running through my mind, I question how I'm gonna survive school tmr. :/ I just spent a Sunday fully on Roswell. And no! This ain't good, it never has been. Roswell has taken over my life, yknow there might be Aliens arnd. I am joking, Hell yeahh. I just cant accept the fact that I just spent the whole fcking day like that! Without any achievments, whatsoever. Well maybe the fact that I finished the whole season. This is seriously not good.

I am not ready for school! Eventhough I'd dare say I am excited, but I am not ready! Especially when I've told Mum that I've completed my work when I have, but left so many blanks. Miss Chua is gon' kill me, She's gon' stab me alivee. ; /

Yesterday.
I caught second sis at the Street Style Slam yesterday. Together with Jam! All the seniors, Bidina, Beverley, Majella, etc. All the seniors we don't get to see in Ij Dance Ensemble. And hell yeahh, they're good. They don't get to be called Seniors for nothing yknow.

Oh my! Ryan from So You Think You Can Dance was there! My fav. comtestant. (: He's hotter than on tv! I still can't believe I saw him! Here's a glimpse of him for those who didn't get to see the oh-so-hot Ryan. (:

He spins on his head!

Isn't he oh-so-hot?!?

Ever felt like the road home seems darker each day?
Like you're being followed but there's no one there?
Eventhough you've walked the path your whole life,
its like you don't feel comfortable with it.
Like it doesnt belong, or seem right?

From Roswell, I told you I was a fanatic! (:

I miss Ryan Conferido. : /

I am sooo lazy to blog. Lynette's was fun yesterday. Ah, gotta go for tuition later. Bleah, check out this cute boyy. No Jenn i am not like Meishi.

Phin and Austin. (:

Hello Hello. I am back again, hogging the computer as well as the television at the same time. Roswell Roswell. You rock Anne-marie! Yay. I think I am gonna be hanging out with Jenn today, then perphaps going over to marina sq to support Jam! Yeahh, my sister's competing, yet another competition, she doesn't get enough of it yknow. But owells, she loves it luh.

Wokay, I've gotta go now.
Laterrr yall.

STEVE IRWIN, REST IN PEACE.

We'll never get to watch your shows again. You died doing what you loved, and you respected all animals more than anyone else. Devoted all of your life to reptiles, animals for that matter, ahh, you rock crocodile hunter! (:

Today was like jolly jolly fun. (: let me state again, we were suppose to complete our drama, but we ended up watching Roswell. Everyone! go watch it please, its like so sweeeeeeeeeet. yeahh. (: its pretty romantic. No dinner for me tonight, I snacked too much alr. Ooh mann, feel my guilt la. Neh, I think i should stop going on the computer, I start and never stop yknow. Its a freaking Addiction. Ooh I know howta do brushes alr! ;D I am so glad, and its all thanks to Alesia Gian. (:

Yesterday;
I studied at town with meishi, ahh, it was pretty much fun. I finished two Maths papers yknow, great start eh. See Mr Koon, we aren't that naughty. (: Then came the contradiction. Haha, after the two papers, we went shopping! Hah, and lotsa camera whoring too! I love you Meishi Koon. ;D


Scrumptous Sins.

I told you.

Candid! I love. ;D

So you should be able to infer that we had pretty much fun right? Ah whatever, I promised mum I'd work hard for FinalYears. So i am awaiting good results. The nine oclock show on channel eight is so so so sad. Life of the EEEMOOO. Hah, since when has Marie been like that. ;D

Oh its great to have a blog, isnt it? Or does it just take up your studying time? Owells.


Thanks Alesia! Youre a great teacher. ;D

i had a heart to heart talk with rachael till like two plus am last night. god, i love you rach. you tiny person. ;D we talked about what happened last year and how everything passed like so fast. and i just suddenly have this weird nostalgic feeling. i miss sixhono05 alot, and kelly ann fernandez, i miss this bimbo a hell lot. :/ and well, this just goes to show everyone's changing. well, i dont say its neccessarily a bad thing but i sure do miss the good ol times. but i never doubted i loveeee onethree06 but i guess the feeeling towards sixhono is just different.

i think i am gonna go out after tuition with mumma. i should wear my new top! ;D and hopefully a second piercing. EAR piercing. and i have this topshop top i wanna get. ahhh, momma pleeaaaseeee. i am so not looking forward to tuition. facing that old man with the low voice and huge specs is just not my fling. and moreover, the work is like so effing difficult, why did momma put me in! waste of money. so the worst thing is one the nice sunny saturday, i do have a date. but noooo, you wouldnt let me go mum, cos i hafta go seee that old man. okay, now i feel mean. rahhh.

i am gonna have alot going on this weekend, grandmama's coming home, tuition, perphaps christ the king? and lotsa work and mugging all for final year, not forgetting the drama! whoosh. i gotta keep up with time. ; /

happybirthday auntie fatimah. ;D

HELLO HELLO.

yeahh, today was fun. but i failed to give some teachers their card though. ahh, heck. after school we wenta marina square. same old shit. same old boring shit. hahaha. i was having this huge craving for pizza hut today. like a really big cravng. ooh, i watched devil wears prada! （： yay. its pretty good lah. but its kinda boring at times. i rate.. 3.5/5! not bad eh. okay. but there're far many other better movies ive heard of. soo yeahhh. maybe this one's not good enough. ooh yeahh. i wanna get my second hole. i think mum allows, thats waht she said on monday. yeahh. hopefully. (:

ooh my, cleared my locker, gosh. its like sooo many books. and there's lotsa holiday homework to do. plus we not onl hafta do homework, there's lotsa mugging to do. AHH, FINAL YEARS. KILL ME. I HATE STUDYING. or probably we can form a study group! then i wouldnt be so bored. but that wouldnt workeither, cos i'd be too talkative. I THINK I AM LIKE WEIRDDDDD.

today is dad's fake birthday, everyyear we dont really celebrate it, but i guess it'll be justa cake. i just reached home and mum wants me to get the cake with her but she insists i bathe first. i dont get it! why cant i just go there first. its not a long way what. urrrggghhh. you are so irrtating mummy. !@$#@!@#$#

i am having really really bad mood swings these days. its so annoying. i hate mood swinggsss. ahhhh. and then mum just gave me this bottle of furla perfume which is like, ehh. orange in color. its soooo freakyy. looks like juice huh. hahaha.

okay, whatever, ive gotta go.
GOODNIGHT WORLD.

i feel so effing bad.

I AM NOW FOLDING HEARTSSS HEARTSSS AND HEARTSSS FOR TEACHERS' DAY.

RAWR.

WOKAY. what was that for marieeee, tskk. dyou see a new skin! i made it. (: all by thy self. (: i dont know if i have time for meishi's though, cos ive gotta mugggggggg, like her. hah. hopelessly, marie. okay, new skin. vintage, AGN. nopess, not suprising. ooh, tmr we're suppose to have an early day! but, noooooooo. miss chua decided to take it away. ahhhhh, so much for trying to study hard. maths just puts me to sleep, or rather into a coma. and theres tingxie, spelling and all that shit happening tmr, god bless marie. ooh, all hail the torturous school.

isnt secondary school suppose to be less stressful? or so, maybe not yeahh. mum got takeaways for us today. no food from grandmum's. she's overrrr the seaa. hah, i think my sis just got stalked by muts. alll hail overly-gorgeous mabel. hah, i am so obsessed with the phrase "all hail" okay, whatever.

ahhh, i cant wait for idol tmr, joakim joakim joakim. (:

i trust that you wouldn't;

rahh. this hasnt been my day so far. another round of full gorging on mars bars. and with the other thought that ms chua's gonna take our cme period. its like for tuesday, cme is the only relaxing class we have, other than drama, which is getting more and more boring each week. all hail boring school, we dont even have a choice as to whether we want or dont want to attend it. aww.

oh; and check out the spammer, on thy tag board. i seriously have no idea what he/she's talking abt. but who cares. i am gonna visit cbox and seee who's the one. ahhaah, like as if i can.

my cats sleeping like a pig noww, she's freakishly adorable. and one second ago she was bugging me for food, now she's fast asleep. ooh, teacher's day is round the corner, gotta get pressies soon. ahhh.

sometimes you could say its fate,

and yknow, things would never be too late.

but thats not the case,

cos you dont even care to wait.

i see you as a source of love,

because thats just the way it works.

i care not to explain,

the hurt, from all this pain.

perphaps you think its all alright,

and you just dont seem to feel the hype.

i wish i would,

i wish i could,

erase the guilt,

of a thousand hills.

now you'd say, run along.

but when i come,

i'll never feel like i belong.

its not okay, for me,

i must say,

i never think that things would be this way.

cos we never we like that,

or rather, i had never fell into this trap.

you may complain,

or pissed, in your way.

but i dont want things to fall apart,

especially this way.

maybe you'd know,

maybe you wouldnt,

but would you care?

i dare say you wouldnt.

maybe now its all good,

but i m afraid that it would a you'd all go blue.

cos that isnt pretty, and that isnt good.

watch your back, she isnt what she seems.

so i am sitting by the computer, pissed, and gorging on the thousands of caloried mars bars that rachael bought me. i dont even care if they're expired.

so you scream and shout and me early in the morning just for me to make my bed, yeah, i am lazy. but just tell me and i'd do it. and then you force me to drink some weird potion or whatsoever that are recommended by your so called health concious friends. go away. ahhh.

and now, my camera is so fucked up. aparrently in the sd card its says no image. afterall the pictures i took yesterday, no frigging image?! ahhh. I NEED A NEW CAM DADDY.

revoltage juniors. (:
i love yall. (:

jenn// dolls and daggers says:
ohmygod. I SAW THE THAI GUY FROM ST GAB AND HIS FRIEND TODAY AGAIN!
jenn// dolls and daggers says:
hothothothtothot!
marie As she sheds her skin on stage. says:
hahaha, boycrazy.

jenn// dolls and daggers says:
and thai people are relatively much hotter then the average of sg guys. yes. dont you think so? i think so.
marie As she sheds her skin on stage. says:
i havent seeen thais.

i love my dear darling jennifer ongg. she just made my day. (:

i am real excited tmr! (:okay evryone! tmr, 1 - 130 come watch the ij dance perform! for free! hahaha, if you dont go youre missing out on fun. (:

ooh, i am back frm school. (: yeahh, dance today. ooh, i am finally getting the true meaning of dancing. hah, we used to just sit there and watch the seniors dance, but now its like non-stop dancing. the worst thing is we dont even know any details about saturday's charity drive. oh no. and how abt make-up and all. huh?!? and then all the transport arrangments? you tell me howw.

ooh mann, now joakim's into the top five, which means i'll get to see him on sat, but it also means injustice. but owells, i'm not gonna vote, its just gonna be a waste of money. nurul! youre really pretty. haha. okay whatever marie. ahh, evereyone's against joakim, i dont know if i am a not, but i dont know why i just like him. maybe its the way he handles the criticisms. yeahh, maybe so. but poor mathilda, she's really good yknow.

ooh, i am very into photoshopping now! (: yay. i love it. coolshit. haha. anw, i am suffering for muscle ache now, and it sucks. i can't even move my neck properly. mann, its tough. but its all worth it, we'd put in a 150% and do our best! ooh, and like isabel said, do revoltage proud.

THANK YOU ISABELLY, thanks for all the encouragement! (: ooh, and thanks for coming today, cos if not we wouldnt be able finish learning oure steps. yeapyeap. THANKS.

okay! tmr's a friday! smth worth looking forward to. EP! TWO FREE PERIODS. yey, and then dance after that! whoo! now i dont mind dance everyday. (:

okay, time for some teeveee. bye.

i just woke up and its almost one. oh nooo. okay funny ah, mr joakim impersonator. hahahah, shouldnt you be the one getting a life?! ooh my, i alr knew it couldnt have been the real joakim. but i really find it wierd yknow, i mean why would someone wanna post as joakim on my tag board? too free alr. hahaha, and i really wonder who he/she is. ooh mann, suspense. ooh and why did the person say in an earlier post " i am really the real joakim gomez" huh? ooh my, i dont get it. but owells. doesnt harm to guess anyway. haha. ooh, and not the first time someone told me to get a life. but this time i am not even mad, i am like laughiing la. i dont know why. ahhaha. its so funny dontcha think?

rahh, whatver. i am going shopping today! eventhough three quaters of my homework isnt done. but heck, mum doesnt know. yeahhh, talk about studying hard marie. ahh, you suck la. hoho. okay.

laterr yall.

I think Isabel Francis is so funny. ;D Yay. Go dancers.

are you like joakim joakim? i mean like REALLY REALLY JOAKIM? the one i have been fantasizing about?!?! ooh my. i think im bonkers. WHY WOULD JOAKIM TAG MY BOARD?! ooh no. i think i'm mad alr. ahhh. i dont think he's joakim. its so weird. :/ ahh.

joakim you sexy you look like WHOO!
joakim you handsome you look like WHOO!
joakim you steady you look like WHOO!
YOU DA MAN! WHOO!

do you guys rmb this cheer? we had it sung during sg idol joakim! if youre even the real joakim. ahh.

the cute joakim gomez. (:

awww, he's so charming. (:

I think Isabel Francis is so funny. ;D Yay. Go dancers.

ooh mann, school sucked. excluding dance. (: yeahh, we got back our maths results alr. owells, no comments. its a friggin' just pass. well i wouldnt even consider it a pass. ahh, well. i dont think mum will even have a reaction, she'd usually go " why ah? you want tuition a not? " then i'd go, " hm, nopes mummy, i dont want tuition." but guess what? math tuition starts tmr. i mean, tuition is good la. ahh, whatever marie. ooh yeahh. i hope i can go out with mum after tuition though! its always fun hanging out with mum. (: i love you mummy.

ahh, but marie's really gotta buck up for final year, she hasnt been studying. i am gonna start studying soon mann. (: ahh, i dont understand the geomatrical shit at all.

RAHH.

justa lil' too late;

summer smiles, of worthy souls,
fill my heart with the wierdest tones.
i wish; i cry, but no one knows,
just stab me, and still it wouldnt be known.
the jealousy, of external stuff,
make me tired, cos its oh-so-tough.

maybe its hatred, or maybe not.
they just tire me, thats not a doubt.
i wouldnt care less, but that wouldnt be me,
to ignore the happenings and just be free.
well, if i could, i would.
thats whats always said, but no,
i couldnt.

i am probably crazy,
for thinking these thoughts.
but boyy, i cant keep them blocked.
ohh, what hypocrisy.

ignore the emo-ness in me.

now, i am gonna wirte my very veyr longg thank you speech. (: please do not blame me for being naggy.

so its yet another birthday for me. the thirteenth one, gone through this for lets say, 13 times. each year different. (: yay. so yeahh, i wanna thank everyone who got presents for me, made an effort to wish me, those who msged me in the middle of the night for the on-the-dot birthday wish, thank you. and those who wrote happy birthday testimonials for me and other wonderful stuff yall did for me. has been a while since i felt so damned happy. (: and lucky too.

to jenn, my darling twin. thanks for that mention on your blog. iloveeeeyou. and yes. its been soo long alr. and both of us matured and you of course more gorgeous than ever, have stuck together. we've gone through so much. classmates in p3, seperated in p4, and then back again. though now in sec one we're in different classes, we still make a point to stick together! well, lets just call that fate la. (: so i guess i just hafta wish you and love luck. (:

to rachael, thanks for the poem and the sweet msg on your blog. i really really appreciate it. so i'm thirteen！and though youre one year younger, we can still get along well! (: so thats something worth treasuring. i relly had fun during cheerleading in pri school, and that was thanks to you! (: cos youre always so loud, wacky, funny and HYPER! (: iloveyouu.

and also to all those that specially mentioned me in their blogs. THANKYOU. I LOVE YALL.

ooh, and not for getting 'joakim' in my tagboard. thank you play pranker for making me happy. (: but i really love the REAL joakim gomez. i dare to say i worship him. cos he's so effing hot. (:

so anyway, on top of all these birthday fun i had fun in school too! (:



there's science tmr, ooh mann. people, pray for me. (:

yall make me whole,
thats why i love yall so.
you cheer me up on my darkest days,
and i ponder how i can repay & in what ways.
i wish i can keep you guys with me,
but no, i am not worthy to be.
you guys shower me with your joys,
oh boyy, i pray to god that yall would be mine.

the way i live, is thanks to yall.
to make me happy and full of gall.
i crumble but stand up with your helping hand,
for i know yall love me and i'm your bestest fans.
so many times, the help and love,
touched my heart and taught me to love.
i'd do all i can,
and all i may ever need,
to make yall glad,
for thats my creed.

thanks yall, i really feel like that luckiest girl on earth. (:

I love Swensens.

its early in the morning! i am looking forward to swensens later at night! ；D uhh, finally mann. at family dinner not done in ages. everyone's busy. so we havent been able to eat as a family for sucha long time. havent studied for lit! gotta finish up by about three. cos i'd be going down to wisma to send my phone for servicing. ;D yay.

ahhh, have yall watched the sgidol trailer? ooh, obviously a msg to joakim fans. hahah,
though i love you so joakim. this is a singing competition. oooh, feel my sadness. i looooooove JOAKIM GOMEZ. so if youre really outta the competition dont cry okay? ahhhh. my dear joakim.

marie's officially in love, with joakim gomez! ;D whalalala.

Fly me to the moon

Let me play among the stars

Let me see what spring is like on

Jupiter and Mars

In other words, hold my hand

In other words, baby, kiss me

heyy yall. marie's like bored. ooh, i think pms is sucha irritating thing! it totally spoils your whole effing day. yeap, spoilt minee. ):

Jennifer Tan you funny bunny! Whalala. I won't allow your romance to bleed away! No girl! And who mentioned anything about you slicing your viens? Chin up babe!

i think photo shop's funn. dad bought the handbook for me alr. maybe later in my life i'd be a designer! like for graphics. cool shit mann. (:

so just leave me,

or maybe together we'd flee.

i bought cosmogirl!! (: marie's happy!

my horoscope for august says i am in the guy's attention! ahahha! funnyyy. rahh. marie has dont her homework! (: ive been all good! and there's tuition next saturday. hear me weep mann. i think alicia pan is so pretty! ahhh, whatever. i replied three times to ihsan back in taiwan. ooh, money's flowing away. lala. anyone know's how much its costs? i'm not me today. whyy? i dont know either. family bday dinner tmr. swensens! yay! my prawn fritters with popcorn and ice cream birthday cake. (:

ohh, how i miss you so;

Still remember how you make me weak

How I fought to find the words to speak i just cant escape the memories

I tried but I just cant break free

Thought I closed the door on what we had

But these feelings just keep coming back

Didnt think that you could make me lose control like that

hello all. (: i am not focused! and whyyy marieee. youre such a effing slacker. you suck marie. go fail your exams la, like anyone cares. tralalala. i have adapted the habit of talking to myself.

yes, i am wierd. thank you. ;D

ooh myy. scandalous day today. whalalala. so the soccer players from saint gabs are leaving today. so kim wanted to say her goodbye to micheal! it was so funny i swear. she was literally shaking, with sweaty cold palms. (:

poor kim! she just wanted her last goodbye micheal! be grateful!
ooh, what scandal.

so byebye micheal aaron and the rest! play well mann.

WE WENT TO J8 TODAY. it was boring. as expected. mann, you gotta hate schooldays. ): so its lit on monday, math on tues day and science on wednesday. but but but! there's sgidol on wednesday! finally something to look forward to. ooh my dear joakim, dont cry you cute thingg. we still love you. (:

its my birthday on monday! but NOOOO, i am not excited. at all! why mann, whyyy. every year i get so overwhlemed and highh when my bday is approaching. but this time, nope. i dont know why. i just read jenn's blogg!

cheer up girl, marie's here. even though i am not even sure what youre upset about. ): its okay girl. you gotta take things in your stride mann! its all up to you to choose to be happy or not okay? i love youu, JENNIFER TAN KE THENG. WO HUI YONG YUAN ZHI CHI NI

so i'm gon' study for science and lit now, hopefuly i'd be able to finish up my art as well! (: yay. yeahhh, maybe.

but owells. LATER YALL.

i just need sometime to think;

baby just close your eyes, i cant take the sorrow.

this was how bored i was the whole of today. not that i didnt have anything to do, i was just so lazy to study. so ive just missed the whole of singapore idol extra. and and and! joakim is hotness! (: i am starting to think jonathan is very very charming and well, suave. ahh. its seldom that i worship local artists. ooh! not forgeting kit chan who's voice is like an angel. I AM NOT LESBIAN. thank you.
and walah! my maid just walked past and said. " jasmine beautiful uh."


hahaha! so funny! i havent studied lu deng of my chinese. ooh mann.

You make me wanna hold you to the morning light.



yeahh, so red house lost for interhouse. the rest were really good anf funny. lol. i just couldnt get in character for the game show. i was suppose to be a nerd, not a showoff. arghh! i feel guilty. JUST TELL ME ABT IT. but owells. after school jenn came over, to dress up and play around before dinner. it was pretty pretty fun. she slept! ahahah. i guess she was real tired. lol. so we got dressed and left at arnd four plus. sam couldnt go. well, i should have seen that coming.











so we had dinner at some food court at suntec. i didnt have moneyso nice nice rach helped me out first. (: two roti pratas! yay. yum. they're pretty ex la. but owels. then we wenta watch fireworks! squeezed through the big sea of people. it was all worht it. they were so fascinating! i love fireworks. its seems like singapore's quite rich. they can have so many fireworks. at one time! (: yeahh. jenn and jewel seemed quite pissed from all the squeezing. but it was worth it! (:





my chinese exam is on friday and i left my textbook in school! kill me nowww.

Marie is like terribly depressed now. She needs some drugs to get her happy again.

no more partyy. no more no more. marie's sadd. ): tralalala. hear me weep.

Save me, cos' I'm drowning in your love;

Save me, cos' I'm drowning in your love;

i think dove moisture therapy is UBERR GOOOOOOD. it smells good too. (: it makes my hair soft! ((: ahh. i dont think i'd be able to go out today, cos of stupid history exam on monday. what sadness. not much of fun staying hme studying.

EXPLAIN TO ME AGAIN WHY I'M STUDYING HISTORY?

i mean, its not like i wanna be a archaeologist or some historian or history teacher or what right. i think they should let us choose subjects at sec one. (: its 9.48 now. and i am the only one of the three awake in this house. even march is sleeping! ): ive got no one to talk to. *weeps!* my parents are out. and i am starving badly. i need to eat. i didnt have dinner last night. nor supper, nor brekkie this morning. I AM HUNGRY. oh no, dont eat marie, gotta keep that stomach flat for tanning in december! my absolute loveeee. dad says we'll get skin cancer if we continue barbequing ourselves like that. hahah. bakwa! (:

i cant wait for tuesday! tho its no more chalet, there still the fun beach party! yay! (: i cant wait cant wait! i think i should take up yoga to calm my nerves. ooh! i sprained my ankle yesterday without knowing it! mum said i did. rahh. and it so dear. and grandmummy being a traditional old woman wants to take me to the SINSEH. do you have any idea how hard they twist turn and press your foot like a piece of plastacine?! i am in for suffering.

YEAHH. my journal's so full of paper hearts and spongebob stickers. not forgeting daily doodles too, totally defeats the purpose of keeping my life organised. c0s it's so floooded with drawings, i cant write ANYTHING in. but owells. mum asked me what i wanted for my birthday. she suggested a mp3 player, cos she hates the fact that our house is always blasting with music. i told daddy i wanted a chocolate fountain, then he asked if i wanted to lose weight or gain weight. he's always wetting my blanket. but yeahh, its true la. but nobody will understand how much i love chocolate! (:

ooh! did i mention that i think our ezlink cards are so hilarious!? meishi's one is so funny! kim said we had all slimmed down since primary school, quite comforting to hear. it just shows us how much we've grown. we're young ladies now. (: and more vain and spendthrift.

ooh, and finally, mindy's awake. and the excited march who is also awake is on her head. tho i dont really know why. cats climb yknow. they climb. ooh, and i wanted to go to church today. yknow to pray for exams. but i hadnt had a date, and going to christ the king is just too scandalous for the innocent me. OWELLS.


he's hotness. (:

why is today's post so long?

later yalll. (:

I FEEL SO GUILTY. i am not going for rgs dance night and neither is rach. but we're not going. so we're in other words, stupidly paying for nothing. but i really didnt wanna go, and if my mum does not wanna give me money for the tickets, i'll hafta ask for an advanced allowance for next week and i wont have money for the partyyy. ohh mann. ): i'm broke mummy. yall can give me hong baos for my birthday. nahh, i'm joking. (: but well, i do hope grandmummy does.

they're planning a party for me and jewel next week! on the 8th! i am so happy you know. i love you friends. (: so there's a chalet and a stay over! i am bloody happy! (: well, maybe not that happy. still feel so guilty for wasting that thrity bucks. hah. i had science remedial today. pretty fun. (: its funny with people from different classes altogether. (: ooh, and we had dining
ettiquete(?) today!

DID YOU KNOW THAT MALAYS HAVE A PLATFORM ON THEIR TABLE TO PUT THEIR DISHES?! I BETCHA DIDNT KNOW THAT! HAH! WHO'S THE SMART ONE? (:

after schools are real fun now. macs is as noisy and the ij canteen. (: ive got national day practice tmr! (: yay. we're singing and dancing! cool shit! its like two things i totally enjoy doing. tmr i'm gonna buy jewel's present! (: then its over to chomp chomp for dinner.

my day's so fucking bad. i lost my art! the art piece i spent my whole lifetime on! rahh. all my effort and time! just all gone like that okay! ahh. then i was late for art because of that. ahhh. i feel like dyingggg. rahh. then during english, mrs roch kept picking on me! just because i asked kim for glue! ahh!

M.R. : marie, what is the answer? what do think he was thinking?
i was like wondering "how should i know what he's thinking? ooh my"
me: errr. *says some rubbish*
then she asks nat, and she repeats my rubbish answer.
m.r.: ooh my natalie, i am sure youre brighter than that!

i mean, what is she freaking implying? that i'm stupid! rahh. i feel so pissed. these two days have beeen real bad. i cracked myk750i yesterday ooh myyy. its so freaking screwed. mum didnt scold me. but that doesnt mean that dad wouldnt. i cant believe mum actually suggested to buy me a new phone! ahh! i love you mum. YOURE THE BOMB. （：

my throat is bleeding. i think from the excessive screaming yetserday. i can taste the metallic taste of bloood. its disgusting. ahhh. i can just die nowwww,

half the night i waste in sighs.
in the wakeful dose i sorrow.
for the meeting; the meeting of tmr.

rahh. this blog is so fucking screwed. i dont know if meish can go for sgidol tmr! ooh mann. hopefully mr koon would allow. we will study reall hard okay! my arts almost completed! i just have to wait for the pendant to dry and then stick the thing to the thing! hah! and its done! i am so full of shit. ahh. i wanna go for idol tmr! really really. i think maggie and me is friggin funny. so freaking funny. i kept falling asleep during maths ! bad habit bad habit.

homework time! (:

heyhoheyho. i cant move my fingers properlyy.

SO THIS IS HOW IT ALL STARTED; i was happily doing my art and trying so hard to open the damn bloody superglue bottle tube thing, and the whole thing spurlted out, and now my whole hand is filled with this layer of white white residue. and its so dry and hard, making my oh-so-tender skin so rough! I AM SUCHA BIMBO! but really this sucks. BIG TIME. ahh. ):

i havent been posting much huh. i guess i am plain lazy. not just about blogging. ahh, practically everything. i went for sgidol a few days ago! it was pretty fun. first i got the tix from meish, and then aaron. haha. GAY! (: nahh, i'm joking.

anyway. i have tonnes of work waiting to be done. this is said in almost ALL my posts. i am so utterly hopeless. i wanna go for sgidol next week! i dont know if mum will allow.

OOH MUM PLEASE! TAKE IT AS A BIRTHDAY GIFT? ITS THE BRITISH THINGY THING THING! I WANNA GO! RAHH. MY JOAKIM WILL MISS ME OKAY! OR RATHER I'LL MISS HIM! DONCHA THINK HE'S SO EFFING ADORABLE! AHH. I AM HEAD OVER HEELS! AND AND AND. AARON MIGHT BE ABLE TO GET MOSH PIT TICKETS! AHH! I HAVE TO GO! JOAKIM DONT WORRY. I'LL BE THERE!

that was freakishly crazy! but i really wanna go! then what if meishi cant go? then i wouldnt wanna go alone! ahh. whatever. i have to change my blogskin and link people. i feel so bad la! some have asked me so manytimes and for so long alr! ahh.

rachael's got crush! i'm happpy for you babe! :D

ive been recieving funny smses. hoho. so hilarious. but so freaking scaryy.

i am so self obsessed!

sorry for not blogging for such a long time. ive been kinda busy with school and such. so much so that, i havent been really going for after school lunches. its like geog english science and all. its practically driving me nuts. or should i say i am already nuts. but some silly things kinda perked me up to concentrate on my work, tho sometimes i feel so darn distracted. ahh. and for english i am in charge of what? MISS UNIVERSE. say hello to death marie. rahh.

but overall i'm happy. with sg idol tmr and stuff. its enough to get me going. AND, i have a feeling we're gonna screw tmr's newsreport thing. YEAH. ooh my. and we arent even done with the script. ahh, call this stress mann. and freaking adding to it, my cramps are killing me. WHAT WOMEN GO THROUGH MANN. FEEL MY PAIN! exams are round the corner! ):

i am kinda going crazy alr. but i dont really have the time for that. so im gna head back to MISS UNIVERSE. say hello to irritating projects and study timetables.

heyhey. overdue picture taken at macs. there are loads of assignments waiting to be done. 6 PROJECTS, AND ESSAY WRITING FOR LIT. kill me. then i had a compo exam today and i was completely unaware. fine, not unaware, but i forgot. okayokay. ahh. i gotta go buck up now.

A unforgivable mistake;
An unsavable friendship；

A foolish word,
a friendship wrecked.
A contradiction,
a confusion.

I was once the protector;
Now i am the dictator.
I wish i could take back the silly words,
but all i did was act like a bitch.
Now i finally realise;
it wasn't a facade.
But a nightamare come true.

I sit and stare,
I sit and think.
it was not true,
I try to believe.
But no, however i try,
it would just never fly.
It was no dream, it was the truth;
the upsetting cruel truth.

The difficult position i am being put through,
the helplessness inside,
flowing throughout the weak mind.
The guilt, the disability to erase.
Just like i'm in a race,
when you try but never being able to get that place.
Denial, like they say,
was not chosen, if i could i would,
just run right away.


You played your best;
but i did not,
all i did was stop and get in your way;
though this way you seemed even further away.
I didn't expect of it,
it was like being bit,
a bit by another bit,
the torture, on this creature.

If it would end,
or if i could just bleed,
bleed; and end all this.
making it seem, it was just a dream.

facade, oh what a facade.
yeahh, if only.

hello! (:

i think our school is damn HAPPENING. i feel like a liann. ): like "whoa! damn happening seh!" YEAHH. RIIIIGHT.

and yknow whyy? cos carricechong came today. she deejayed for us! live! (: i swear she's damn gorgeous. and hot too! ahh. then she was walking around the canteen talking to us. (:
i went to yuanmays filming today! (: it was fun, but kinda boring, but hot. ahh. whatever. i am not myself today.

hm.

photo whoring today! check this out.



coolness huh! (: that was with jaime. then i photowhored with meish too! (:

meishi's pretty! (:


i love paultwohill! (: yeahh, riiiight.

my phone's cam is not badd. (: support sonyerricson; k750i.

while we were at macs, meishi bought a drink! (:

i am fascinated! have you seen coke like this is macdonalds?!?! no! ((:

meanwhile, its one more month to my birthday! (: hear me say yay! (:

hellohello.

thursdays, three double periods. what da you expect? i am terribly tired, but ive yet to complete lotsa hmk. we wenta j8 today! disappointed kim and jenn, no eye candies for them to see. hoho. then jenn sam and i wenta the macs at the interchange to have ice cream! i swear thats like the hangout for the students in bishan. its like flooded with kuochuan, amk sec, and blah. i still cant believe my second choice for psle was kuochuan, i was trying to imagine myself in the white blouse and blue skirt. everything would be different mann. aww. ):

i love my friends, and since love is a two way thing;
my friends love me. (:

so anyways, i am really tired, for some weird reason. headaches, stomach cramps. godd. kill me.
conferenced with ARRON THE DRUMMER, HE HAS A HIGHH VOICE. LOL.

There's a piece of you that's here with me ;

school as so friggin fun today! esp the clases after recess.

so, i was eating at the canteen then kim and lynette ran to my table laughing.
L& K: "pad pad i need pad!"
M: "omfg, i am eating la, stop playing."
L& K: "no no no, nat!!! nat!!!"
M:"nat what?!?!"
L& K: "she got her mens! hurry hurry!"
M:"what you want!?"
L& K: "pad pad pad!"
M:"oh yeahh!"
*SCURRIES TO BAG TO FIND A PAD.*
*ALL OF US START GETTING HYSTERICAL.*
and then suddenly kim lynnette and nat come backk.

then we start laughing and guess what mann. nat showed lynette and kim her undies! ohmygodd. you can just die. and then she was like "is this menstration?" oh gosh. so the next period was english. we went to the ava room. then as kim was walking in she was like "everyone! nat got her thingg! first time!" in front of mrs roch, gosh. i wonder how humiliated nat was. tskk. so the whole class were laughing and then i told nat " youre a woman mann" HAHA.

then the next peroid. kim told miss chua. and then the whole class started laughing. then nat was like " i dunno.. thats why i ask her la." so hilarious. and because ms chua knows daneilla, nat's sis, nat was like " my sis have the whole family know one! so smelly!" OMFG. thats the worst thing your sister can say abt you. her reputation is tarnished. wahhahaha.

you gotta love life in ij.

art! is so troublesome! ):

since i am so bored, i have decided to post some old old old pictures. enjoy. (:









photoshopping skills not bad huh?

school was great, as per usual, tuesdays are best. there's hilarious drama classes and exciting cme. (: i was falling asleep during english today. mrs roch was looking at me. soon my name is going to be in that yellow file. ): i have tonns of art homework to do. but i dont really care la. tralala. i gon' be a good girl and finish my hmk today.

i cheated during tingxie. OOPSSSY.

since my birthday is soon to come, i have came up with a wishlist! which yall probably cannot fufill. (:

i want...

1. lindsaylohan's hot bod! (:
2. fat fat hamsters. NOTE, FAT ONES.
3. to be able to not eat for one week! (:
4. to be utt's girlfriend! HAHA.
5. to have this season's clothes from zara, SUN DRESS SUN DRESS!
6. to be able to walk on my head.
7. unlimited supply of money!
8. chocolate, like LOTSA LOTSA DARK DARK CHOCOLATE. andandand, also milk chocolate. ooh!!!
9. piano lessons
10. latin dance classes.
11. a more flexible body.
12. less frizzy hair.
13. jet black hair! ooh. i am emoooooo. emoooooo, not emo. (:
14. to star in a moviee.
15. to go to hollywood. in a private hellicopter!
16. thus, i'd need a hellicopter.
17. thus, i hafta learn to drive/fly a hellicopter.
18. to have everything i want! (:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:

marie's a fat ass greedy pig.

Did you ever feel like you wanna be
someone else for just one day
did u ever feel like you wanna see
through another pair of eyes
Did u ever think I might wanna be
with anyone else for just one day
Did u ever really think of me
when I walked away

The look the dunks and the bottle of Jack
the smokes the slouch and my eyes back
you think you know what you think you'll find
you think you'll figure me out tonight
but you'll never know what I won't share
coz I don't care, no I don't care
you think you'll figure me out tonight
but I don't care

And I wonder, if I'm just built this way
coz every man that I know makes me feel like I'm to blame
when it's over, me and my selfish ways
go back to start again
go back to start again

Did u ever feel like you should have said
something smarter at the time
Did u ever feel like you should have kept
it all to yourself
Did u ever think it might be your fault
I never promised anymore
Did u ever think it might not be me
now it was always me

The look the dunks and the bottle of Jack
the smokes the slouch and my eyes back
you think you know what you think you'll find
you think you'll figure me out tonight
but you'll never know what I won't share
coz I don't care, no I don't care
you think you'll figure me out tonight
but I don't care

And I wonder, if I'm just built this way
coz every man that I know makes me feel like I'm to blame
when it's over, me and my selfish ways
go back to start again
And I wonder, if I'm just built this way
coz every man that I know makes me feel like I'm to blame
when it's over, me and my selfish ways
go back to start again
go back to start again

The look the dunks and the bottle of Jack
the smokes the slouch and my eyes back
you think you know what you think you'll find
you think you'll figure me out tonight
but you'll never know what I won't share
coz I don't care, no I don't care
you think you'll figure me out tonight
but I don't care

And I wonder, if I'm just built this way
coz every man that I know makes me feel like I'm to blame
when it's over, me and my selfish ways
go back to start again

And I wonder, if I'm just built this way
coz every man that I know makes me feel like I'm to blame
when it's over, me and my selfish ways
go back to start again
go back to start again
go back to start again

gosh! meigan watch is so entertaining! its meishi's father's blog about newborn meigan. she's so cute! so.. erm, pink. yeahh. marilyn manson's tainted love. i am addicted to it. so school's started for three weeks alr, although its doesnt seem like it due to all the hanging out and the holidays and celebrations. i have let say got into the mood of doing my work alr, cos of all the piles the teacher's been giving us.

yeahh, and and and. i am into this piano thing now. i know yall must be saying i'd quit halfway. sometimes i doubt myself on that one too, but yeahh, i am quite determined this time. and also latin dance. thats one's been my interest since forever. how? its not my fault ive got no money right.

so ultimate wishlist now is,
piano and latin dance classes.
tuition for geog, science and math.
cable tv!
and and and, for italy to win worldcup though i think france will win. whateverr.

who's watching the match tonight? (:

Once I ran to you
Now I run from you
This tainted love you've given
I give you all a boy could give you
Take my tears and that's not nearly all
Tainted love
Tainted love

so much hmk, so lil' time. starting to get back to the school mood, of course. with all the hmk lined up. there's art, hist, lit, maths yeahh. feel my pain mann. so i am doing lit now, are children racist by nature? well, i think so yknow, thanks to the irresponsible adults who do not know howta sent a goood example for they're kids nowadays. tskk.

rahh, i am so sickk of work. save me! and and and, i didnt do one test for elearning. god bless everyone so we wont have birdflu. praise the lord! (:

i know you want me so bad. (: HAHA! ((:

FUN lunch and shopping today! we forgot abt elearning. yeaps. seoul garden! *screams* yeahh, good food and fats too. sighh.


look at the good food! ((:

so we went shopping at bugis street, godd. its bloody cheap la. its sad to shop with so lil money. i want a rich husband to marry! ahh! marie's gone madd. i am now having a video conference with my twinnie twinnie twin twin! ((:


haha, unglamness! but its aiight.

so anyway, sam and rachael had to go first. so they left. and then we didnt get to take a photo together again. GODD. haiyahh. so we took neos! pity they're with jewel or i'd upload them here! (: then we wenta the baby arcade! yknow the one your mum takes you to everytime she shops at the parco? ((:

kids forever we'll be. (:

then we headed to coffee bean! (: yay. had ice mocha again. all time fav. ((: heart to heart talks with the three, godd, pouring it all out was good. started getting emotional and all, heavy hearts and stuff. its like that with girls. ahh. i guess we were think too far. (:

i love yall, jewel, samp, ym, rachael and of course my one and only twinnie twinne twin twin. (:

whats a girl without friends? really.

these quizzez are so entertaining! (:

You wish to achieve your goal at speed. While you are seen dreamy, you also work hard. Try not to run away from problems and you will surely be successful.

Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you:You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

oohmy! (:


You've got great self-confidence and you're full of charm. Most guys who get to know you will be attracted to you. You are far from sweet and proper; your intriguing personality fascinates them. Most guys find it easy to fall for a girl like you.

You really care about other people's feelings and are quite serious about the issues that affect your life. You are sincere, and your concern for the well-being of others makes many people want to be your friend.

You strictly follow rules, and you expect other people to be the same as well. People can get tired of you easily, as you can make them feel a little guilty about themselves. You always make decisions on your own, and can be dismissive of other people's advice. You like to be the leader in groups, but can forget to be concerned about the people you are with.
grow up and be a mature adult! Perhaps you could start reading good books; they might help you look at the world in a different light. You do want to be taken seriously, right?

Your boyfriend believes that you are a strong and independent person. Your confidence and cheerfulness make you an attractive person to be around, but sometimes you need to pay more attention to what other people, including your boyfriend, are thinking.
http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test81.aspx

haha, its not that true okay! (:


Here is the analysis:
You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that's why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don't just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person's personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn't meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high.


Here is the analysis:
Kind and Gentle
Your kindness is your charm - you are also gentle and sweet. Everybody likes to be around people with your personality. Like a psychologist, people like to talk to you to discuss their problems because you are proper and discrete, as well as confident. You look mature and people respect you. People with this kind of character are few and far between.
http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test79.aspx

i am kind?!!?


You value your friendships: 70%
You love your friends very much - so much so that it's actually quite a worry. You may not be able to cope very well when you do lose somebody's friendship. You are a very sensitive and fragile person, and are therefore likely to get upset easily. You care for your friends and are willing to do anything that they ask you to do. Sometimes this can make your friends think that you are a bit of a nuisance. Nevertheless, people do really love you because your highest priority
is your friends.
http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test78.aspx

i am a nuisance! ):
http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test78.aspx

I CONCLUDE E-LEARNING SUCKS. BIGGGIE.

it's so boring and they arent even supose to allow us to use the computer for so long. we're so gonna go blind. i'd rather be in school now yknow. completed most of the stuff online alr, except for those that you hafta print out and do as a worksheet. then i have the other hmk to do, art and all that shit. KILLMENOW. so its fun lunch and shopping to look forward to tmr. yay. (:

i am going to my sister's psc night to support revoltage, i think we're baking cookies. (:
go revoltage.

HELLO WORLD.

ahh, fun lunch today. after a longg time. NOSTALGIA MANN. the embarassmen of making oh-so-much noise in macs is all worth-while. hah, no school tmr, as well as friday. as part of e-learning. AND GUESS WHAT? its portugal against france today. YEAHH. since my dear brazil's gone, my hopes are on portugal. yupps. (: my horoscope says i should move on with my love life today.*rachael goes "ooooohh!!!* hah, she seriously gets too excited sometimes. LOL. (:

yknow how much i miss you so.

RAHHH.

okayokay, so today was well, fine. YEA. I LOVE THE WORD FINE MANN. all very fine today. drama was, well a bit scary. mr armstrong got us to hmm, lie down and think that we're somewhere where well, we can fall asleep. so everyone thought of like the jungle, and mostly the bedroom. OKAY FINE LA. ohmygodd. so embarassing, yea. I THOUGHT OF HEAVEN. i mean, you can fall asleep in heaven right? its when people are so tired of life, you go to heaven. yeap.

then we had cme and stuff. HAH, sex and sexuality. today was abt relationships. yea, i seriously think this is like no age for relationships. and i am starting to not be so scared of mrs tan. yeapp. ohmy. and she didnt scold me for my skirt today! (: yay. i gonna get it altered. too short too short. hah. then she was like "erm, think of a scenario when your friend has a boyfriend and you a supposed to advise her to study instead of getting too involved." ive been through it, hah. so one of our peeps were like "i would advise her to break up with him and all"

mrs tan: " what if she says that he's very handsome and he treats her really well and she doesnt think it would affect her studies? "
me * screams* :" cant you have a handsome friend?! that also treats you well?"
*whole class stares. *

i mean seriously, people are totally dumb when they're in love. i reallyyy, dont know why i screamed so loudly. but yeahh. i mean why not a handsome FRIEND. to me, friends are wayy better than boyfriends. okay maybe yall will be saying that i am only saying this now cos i havent been in love but still, when you think abt it, its actually quite true. then mrs tan was like "i dont mind yall having guy friends then at least yall can have a choice." which is obviously better than being tied down to one, and i am totally not trying to say you can have more than one boyfriend, twotiming, godd. thats bad. and then she was saying girls are naturally more emotional than men, and men are more visual. thats so bad mann. girls normally do things with their heart. only see things the way they are. women are more easily softened while men, do things.. well, just do things. NO, I AM NO SEXIST. (:

Daily overview.
July 04, 2006
You rarely need your hand held, so you don't quite understand why someone else might require it. However, the stars indicate that it's a good time to exercise your sense of compassion and your listening skills.

Teens horoscopes.
You're cuter than a roly-poly puppy with floppy ears today, and people will hug you and try to play games all day. Release your inner kid and play right back, because all the laughter will do you good.

OHMYGODD. marie! why do believe in this! arghh. shittme.

ohmygodd, this is seriously annoying me. i was so happy when i saw the bubblewrap, and then some people just had to destroy it all. annoyants.

ohmygodd, just change your whole firggin attitude and everything will be SO FINE. about the seoul garden shit, have you forgotten we owe sam one? we know that youre vegtarian, but we owe sam her bday treat rmb? and puhhleeaseeee--- there's seriously more to eggs and dessert. vegtables? vegtarians eat vegtables if you rmb correctly. ohmygoddd. what happened to the things you used to say when you were an angel? " no la its okay, its okay." just changed within a day huh? and you say your mum bought you lunch, like jenn said, we would wait okay, and having known us for so long you should have at least knew that part. we are so not ganging up against you. okay fine, you dont like meishi, but why cant you just tag along? is it that difficult? ohmygodd. then you said you knew jenn posted the notice, if you didnt like the whole idea of seoul garden then you could have told us, if you did we would planned everything all well and none of this would have happened. agree? you have got to.

then abt your attitude, like jenn said, you know full well yourself its a problem. then why are you asking us to accept your problem? FYI? as your friends we should be correcting it, not accepting it. and if you dare tell us we should accept your problems then why not you try accepting our friends? its not like you dont have other friends right? RIGHT. then you say all the shit abt not accepting your attitude and not being or friends. now youre severing ties?!?!?

ohmyygodd. i rather just get a asthma attack and faint on the floorr. this is so killing me, and i am sure its not only me. but all of us. whats up with these kinda things happening one after another? i seriously had enough already. its not the first time mann.

JUST KILL ME.

ooh! bubble wrap! feel my joy! (:

Acceptance is not the same thing as resignation. You won't lose if you give in now.

ilovehoroscopes. i believe in them. (: yay.

i just had chicken rice. yums. its the famous chicken rice from dunno where. hurrhurrhurr. i have hmk work i havent done. but what am i doing?! blogging. DIE MARIE, DIE. wahaha. i have lit, art and science to do, plus filing. OHMYGODD. i could just diediedie.

I DONT EVEN KNOW WHY I BOTHER EXPALINING MYSELF. its like it doesnt matter anymore. at least not to me. godd, i sound depressed. i am so not.

i guess i am kinda happy today. ahh, whatever.

okay. ij primary carnival. i seriously had no idea why i was so looking forward to going, the worst thing is, i bought tickets and didnt do anything! ahh. #$#@!!

okay fine, i spent like one dollar on greentea, yknow the new flavour the one with mangosteen and lime. OMG. i drank it and i felt like i was a bloody pregnant woman. like when you wanna puke, need to puke, hafta puke, but just cant puke. FEEL MY PAIN. so we just walked around in pain and sweat. disgusting, i know. so in the end we could take it and left, for pizza hut! woots. WOAH. 50$ on food. its like chewing paper notes. but it was all worth while. gossiping over good food. we know we're gossip queens. ): i love rachael and jennifer, they make me happy. headed to far east.

i neeed accessories!

kim has bloody pretty nice bangles and beads! and, i swear she looks damn good not in her school uniform! like so hot! ahhahah, i am not lesbian. reallyyy.
why doesnt emily like me?
i am sooooooo depressed.

far east! ohh boyy. they're damn good and eating paper notes. everything is damn ex. esp when you look at it and have no money to buy it. you just wanna die. i wanted to die! ahah. no, i am joking. so anyway. like jenn said, "oh. and me rachael and marie can communicate through the eyes.hahah! dam cool right.we talk with eyes. the telepathy rocks.and its dam useful.right right right?" yupps we can. we should join like some guiness book of records or smth. HAHA. i am dreaming. (:
i need to take mummy there. cos i have no money! ):

rach had to leave early, so me and jenn decided to go to starbucks, ended up having a heart to heart talk, from boys to girls, friendship to relationships. iloveyoujenn. so jenn hadta go home, so while waiting at the taxi stand, some irritating man and another annoying head woman, had to just irritate us when they thought that we delibretly let the cab drive past, i mean its a taxi stand?! the taxi driver should noe that we're wiating for the cab right. and he called us xiao mei, do we look that young!? OMG. ahh.

so anyway, you hafta stop being so self centered and annoying. and also, try to change the way you treat your friends. can't you be nicer to them?! ohmygod.

and YOU. can you please try to accept other people. its like, you call me unsocialised, so now who's the one ah? tskk. then you said no one told you we were going for lunch. but jenn posted it on her blog. GREAT EXCUSE. its not our fault that fun is drifting apart like jenn said. why cant we accept other people together, all six of us. so now tell me, whats your definition of being socialised? afterall, its the six of us that stick together like always, we all know that. this is when i friendship is put to the test, and you dont seem like youre gonna pass it. if youre gonna be angry with us, SO BE IT. IVE GOT NOTHING TO SAY. REALLYY.

i am craving for chocolates noww. dark bitter chocolate to keep me living. ):

we're performing tmr for the school, as a celebration for youth day.
so i guesss tmr will be my first celebrated youth day. everyone will be in school dressed pretty-ly (?) but i'll be wearing school uniform, cos i hafta change. ):

i think the only lesson i art. we're doing this jewellery design thing. my loves.

i had cramps during english! badbadcramps. i almost died. it was so painful! ahh. i had moodswings too. ahh, women. see how we have to go through all this?!?!

read meishi's blog. ahh. the whole world is into the soccer craze, why arent i mann. i am so dead nowdays. nothing fun has been going on, when fun things do happen, i am not in the mood to have fun. take the soccer craze for instance.

well, at least there's saturday to look forward to, the ij primary carnival and the christ the king youth rally! yayness.

i am too lazy to do yuanmay's quiz. sorryyyy.

booya. today was greatt.

many double periods but lessons werent as boring i thought it'll be. had silent reading first thing in the morning, that was a bore. throughout the whole thing i wasnt reading but instead thinking bout stuff.

a dreamer dreams she never dies; (:

mrs krishna! iloveyou! she isdarn funny! she make students laugh! (: which is a good thing btw; so she was like "girls your own good your own good." haha! she keeps repeating that, so hilarious.

what good is a man?
he can be your partner in crime,
playing games to pass the time,
he can talk to you for hours about the world and all its wonders,
so what good is a man?

first day back at school. for others it'll be the second.

WHOOTS. seems like i do, love school. and first day of drama class for me. (: mr armstrong if youre reading this your a really fun teacher! wahahah.

okay, so we went to the dance studio for drama and all. veryveryvery fun indeed. hohoho.

ilovedramaclasses!

yay. then i had dental the dentist was like "you have clean teeth but they can be cleaner." i mean, i ate for recess kay. of course it wouldnt be perfectly clean. hoho. did i mention i hate going to the dentist.?! its like you have to sit on the chair with the bright light shinning in and then you hafta allow the dentist to stick sharp things in to your mouth, then while we were waiting for our turn, i heard this drilling noise from inside so i asked lynette, "oohmygod, do they drill your teeth?!" i was damn scared. LOL.

i didnt pass up my maths hmk cos i went for dental today! HOWHOWHOW! miss chua hates me enough already! she's gonna kill kill kill me! i wanna die. NOW.

i am gonna carry a red and white bag to school tmr.

and yknow what?! daddy says if i pass everything for final paper i get my ipod! WHOOTS! studystudystudy.

i am scared of miss chua! oopssyyy.

i am sickk! ahh, i hate the feeling. thank goodness meishi's helping me collect hmk.

iloveyoumeishi. thankyou!

my temp ytd was 39.7 and then it dropped to 38.7. thank goodness mann. ahhh.

i was supposed to go to school today. mum didnt let me go! ) ：
mdm hong called she asked if i went overseas. i think she suspects i have bird flu. ahh.

i want!!! ):

and then i feel so fat cos i just at a cup of CHAWAMUSHI. ):

these bikinis are so bloody expensive!

THIRD TIME BLOGGING TODAY.

Part 1:
The Birth of You
Were you a planned baby?:my parents werent careful.
Were you the first?: nope.
Were your parents married when you were born?: duh.

Part 2:
The Family
How would you describe your family?: weird.
Are your parents still married?: luckily.
Siblings or an only child?:2 elders
If you have siblings are you oldest, middle, or youngest?: youngest.
Which parent do you get along with best?: mum
What do you fight about?: from the television channels to hogging the toilet.
Do you have step parents?: no

Part 3:
The Friends
Do you have more than one best friend?: yup.
Do you share the same interests?: somewhat yes.
Which friend can you tell anything to?: ...

Part 4:
Your PersonalityHow high/low is your self esteem?:midway?
Do you get depressed about things easily?: depends.
Are you an extrovert or an introvert?: extrovert.
Happy?: yeap!
Do you live life to the fullest?: i doubt so.
Part 5:
Appearance
Are you comfortable with the way you look?: depends.
Do you have any piercings besides your ears?: i wish. i want a naval piercing. (:
Describe your hair?: frizzy.
How do you dress?: normally?

Part 6:
The PastWere you a strange child?: mum said i was autistic. considered?
What did you use to love that you no longer do?: collect bears.
Do you have the same friends?: not really.
Was there anything in your past that was traumatizing?: CLOWNS.
Were you ever disowned by a family member?: no

Part 7:
The Future
What is your ambition?: from being a dancer to a singer to a writer to a wedding planner. UH, UNREALISTIC.
Are you scared of growing old?: nahh.
Do you want to get married?: maybe?
Part 8:
The Outdoors
Do you prefer indoors or outdoors?: outdooors. eventhough i am mostly indoors.
What is your favorite season?: summer?
Favorite weather?: cloudy.
Do you like walking in the rain?: YEAH. (:

Part 9:
Food
Are you a vegetarian?: no
What's your fav. food?: CHOCOLATE. I DONT LIKE FOOD.
What food makes you want to gag?: ...
What is your favorite dessert?: MIXED FRUIT SAGO! (:
What is your favorite restaurant?: snoopy place!
Are you a picky eater?: nahh.

quiz! grabbed it off corrine's blog.

why arent i doing my work. ):

school's starting on monday. which means.

- i gotta get up early, thus gotta sleep early.
- i gotta stay back for intensive science, cos i failed.
- i gotta eat the disgusting medcines that help me keep awake.
- i gotta study harder.
- AND, I GOTTA STOP USING THE COM FOR SO LONGGGGGGGGG.

but,
- i can go for lunch with the funers.
- i can stay back for dance
- i can see my friends! yay. (:

so thus i conclude. that school isnt that bad afterall. ILIKESCHOOL.

someone tell me why the timetable i downloaded is in chinese!? @#!$!#

"We're all proud of making little mistakes. It gives us the feeling we don't make any big ones. "
Andy rooney.

AUNT CHARLOTTE IS BACK FROM JAPAN! (:

and she bought me stuff ! yay.



okay the green thing is like a chocolate coated cinamon cookie. its called yatsuhashi. and then on top is a keychain of a geisha.



these are the cookies.





ooh! bubble wrap! (: my love.

dontcha agree? maths hmk sucks. ):

OFF TO THE ZOO!

ILOVEYOUZOO.

i am not trying to say i am an animal or what la. but i just love it so much there. eventhough i come back all sweaty and disgusting. pictures pictures arent yall excited. anyway, i went with mum, big sis and my maid. hoho. funfun. okayokay.






i am not posting anymore cos i am too tired and my mum's killing me cos its 1.45.


laterrrrrrrrrr.

cause i had a bad day.

some people are just itchy for some bashing up mann.
they just make up rumours and tell the whole world.
so i guess the only thing one can do is too just forget bout' it.
though its difficult, you just gotta keep moving on.
and perphaps not think abt whatever people think about you.

ahh, i apologise bout my previous post. sorry yall. and thanks for everything yes. and because of what happened, i recieved like three testimonials at once. LOL. okayokay. thanks yall.

so today's dad's day, havent got anything though. since my dad's working. we're gonna get his pressie and then give it to him during dinnner. ahh.

today just wasnt my day. i wasnt in the mood to shop la. but owells. went towning with stef and sherlyn. and then met and with jaime, jiaher and audrey. and then "BUMPED" into rachael, justin and ben. ha, what a joke. and that rachael just goes around misleading everyone that i am attached. I AM LIKE THIRTEEN. oh my. whoever gave her the idea i would be attached at this age?! oh my oh my. she's too young to be exposed to this kinda nonsense. mum's not working on monday and tuesday. she says we might be going outta the house for that night. yay.

meanwhile, i start to realise that school is starting and, i havent done my work. ahh. guilty-ness. i think i like techno. i mean i like the original version of techno songs. the usually slower and not so mind empowering version. i cant listen to techno. i walk into shops, hear the techno music, and walk out. IMMEDIATELY. maybe its just me la.

so anyway. i wanted to get this white bikini, but they all said that everything would be seen through. ahh, fine. they we on sale kay. thats one in a blue moon. i dont care bout my ugly body anymore. i want my bikini! ahh.

my tag board tells me smth abt my friends they love to talk rubbish. ohmygod. whoever gave them the idea i was in love?! ohmygod. justin and i are just friends. FRIENDS. they just keep going on and on abt it. ahh. i feel so guilty. ive been eating chocolates. i just ate a full mars bar ytd. my mother should stop buying them or i'll keep eating. and grow fat. or should i say even fatter than i am now. ahh. 100 crunches is so not enough. if i keep on eating all these junkies. i am staying home all day today. and one of the reasons is because i have a huge pile of hmk to complete. and i havent even completed half of it. this is what you get when youre lazy mann. i am going out with sherlyn and stefanie tmr! thats worth looking forward to.

i played with photoshop again.

my tag board isnt working. but yall have been talking rubbish ah. tsktsk.

IM HUNGRY. FOOD ANYONE?

wasnt in the shopping mood today. but i still managed to buy stuff. i dunno why. i bought a pair of shorts, a headband, a belt. yeap thats all. the headband was bloody polkadotted! my love! so adorable. had conf ytd, till bout 5 i think. rach fell asleep, so me and justin were talking abt stuff from frist crushes to first loves. hahaha. it was funny. i quite emotional, i dont know why. owells. i blog tmr.

GOODNIGHT WORLD.

ive been pms-ing been angry with the people i am never angry with. my friends. heh, not like i can help it like that. ):

anyway. nothing other than korean dramas, conferencing, and losing weights been revolving round my mind. trust me that sucks. esp the losing weight part. i think i am gonna play some badminton to try to burn those calories off. i havent been hanging out much too, staying at home does not help me to concentrate on my work dad, youre wrong. but i also feel guilt for not doing my work. ive been telling myself to do my math for the longest time, but ive not been able to focus. sad.

the football craze is back; the wait has finally been over guys. i watched yesterday's match. everyone kinda predicted that germany would win. though i have been thoroughly taught by justin how the game goes. i still do not understand. this is my rate of learning for you. which is also the reason why i never get to do well. its always average or under average. prolly also because i never really study. gotta kill this heck care attitude.

i miss dance night so bad. all the anticipating and anxiety. all over just within a night. owells. there's still next year. and next up is drama night! i am so excited. (:me and eliza are crazy over the same guys. hahah. my aunts leaving for japan soon. why arent i on a holiday like her. i hate being stuck on this island. bleah.

my sister refers korean dramas as escapism. she say its because all of us know trhat these things dont happen in reality, so we watch em'to satify our fantasy. thogu i wasnt really happy with what she said, i thought bout it and realised it was kinda true. but i'll still finish watching my winter sonata. (:

i photoshopped some pictures;

Ive been watching the taiwanese show, green forest our home and god, i am in love with the guy witch plays Owen in the show. so bloody hot la. hohoho. (:

okay fine. he's a BIT ah beng la, but still so hot! (:

i think his name is ethan ruan. so hot so hot. ooh. i am in love. (: the guy beside him is another who is also very hot, and also acts in the show. i am terribly tired now, having conferenced till 630 this morning. i am considered dead now. i am growing far too fat. i eat ice cream almost everyday mann. gotta ask my mum to stop buying them. so, bye for now. (:

i am starting to miss dance alr, its only been a few days. i need to go tanning. i am so yellow mann. poof.

tanning anyone?

sacha's sleepover is on sunday. dont even know if i can make it. sigh. i think we are off for a movie tmr. i am not broke for once! but i have to pay for jaime's crumpler, and a few other pressies. then, i'll be broke again. mum mhasntr given me my allowance for this mweek yet. hell la.

DANCE NIGHT.

dance night was a huge success. and i was finally able to do the butt turn! miraculously, that is. everything was paid off, all our time spent practicing, everyone said we did well.

so we arrived at ucc and went to our respective holing roooms. i swear the rooms there rocked. a few run throughs, and it was lunch time alr. after lunch, we proceeded to doing hair, make-up. lots of time for taking pictures! we had fun changing in the dark cupboards, climbing into the lockers, running from room to room. sad to say, all this is over. but overall. we did a good job. and i think we owe it all to the choreographers, ex-co members and teachers. (:

NOW FOR PICTURES! ARENT YOU EXCITED. THESE ARENT ALL THE PCITURES. COS MY DAMN SISTER BROUGHT THE LAPTOP, SO THESE PICTURES ARE GRABBED FROM OTHERS. YES. I GRABBED LOTS FROM LIANNE. (:

very popular picture indeed. ((:

i'll post the other picture some other time okay?

iloveijdanceensemble.